Throw out 50 Thoughts #9 – It’ll be better when I…

calendarStart doing yoga again

Stop eating crap foods lacking nutritional value

The dude goes back to school and I have my days back

Finish my novel

When things suck, as they will from time to time, a light at the end of the tunnel is a welcome sight. Sometimes, however, I get there and figure out it’s just some idiot holding a flashlight, and by following them I’ve missed a turn that would lead me to the real exit, and oh yeah, that idiot with a flashlight turns out to be me.

It’s reassuring to think that my difficulties are only temporary, to recognize that at some future point, they will get better. In the meantime, however, I avoid doing the very things that might draw me closer to the light that I seek. It’s like I put a  rider at the end of each sentence.

It’ll be better when I start doing yoga again, so I’ll go to class someday soon, but today I’m busy.

It’ll be better when I stop eating crap foods lacking nutritional value, but right now this carton of gelato is calling my name.

It’ll be better when the dude goes back to school and I have my days back, so in the meantime I’ll check out this YouTube video.

It’ll be better when I finish my novel, but I don’t know how to fix the issues, so I’ll avoid writing altogether.

I could live without suckitude. I would prefer it, actually, so the question is… why wait?

Why wait until the end of the tunnel? Why not blast a bigass hole through the ceiling and get the hell out? Just dynamite the mother and breathe the fresh air.

So I went to yoga class. I haven’t been in a while. After an hour of twisting and stretching and strengthening, we settled into relaxation pose. My teacher put a towel sprayed with an essential oil over my eyes, and that’s when it crept up on me. I smiled. The weight that I’d been carrying for the last two weeks felt manageable, not because it’s gone, but because the yoga made me stronger. As will eating better, taking control of my time and embracing that which I both love and fear.

It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness. Why stop at a candle? Be your own beacon. Right now. Go ahead. I’ll be here when you get back.

What thought will you throw away this week?

Words by J. B. Everett

Photograph “Calendar-Month View” by Pieter Ouwerkerk © 2007 Creative Commons

3 comments on “Throw out 50 Thoughts #9 – It’ll be better when I…

  1. Veronica Roth says:

    I love this Jeannine! It’s so true that all we need sometimes is a wet flannel over our eyes and shavasana. Sometimes it’s really hard to come out of shavasana though and I just want to lie there on the floor with my eyes closed forever. So deciding to not live with suckitude I’ve decided to throw away the thought that shouts self doubt and undermines my artistic impetus. (Incidentally, Robert told me to throw it out a couple of days ago already, so now I’ll concentrate on doing that.) 🙂

  2. MGB says:

    Great post, Jeannine…Thanks!

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